Recently I started having thoughts about how to limit my futzing-around-on-the-internet time in order to allocate it to more productive ventures. I do spend a lot of time browsing around, consuming random articles about random topics, reading facebook and the like. However, in the middle of my efficiency plottings, I realized that I’ve tried this plan twice before already.
The first time was back in college, when I spent a lot of downtime reading Livejournal and participating in various forums. One year for Lent I decided to give up non-school-related internet activity, with the intention of using all the freed up time on all kinds of wonderful personal projects. A cunning plan that surely could not fail! So, when Ash Wednesday came and my habitual forum-browsing time arrived, what did I do? I took a nap. And that’s how it rolled for the whole time. All the time I saved by giving up those internet ventures went straight into sleep.
Several years later, after college, I had a similar scenario turn up. It was during my World of Warcraft prime, when that game consumed up vast amounts of my free time, that I at some point decided to limit myself in WoW so I could work on more productive personal projects. Again, I stayed true to my promise and strictly limited my time, but all that was freed up was quickly consumed again by sleep. Naps galore.
So I can only assume that the same thing will happen again. Is it my body’s way of demanding a certain amount of downtime from me? When I go into overachiever mode, it just counters by inducing sleep? Or is it some test or obstacle that I just haven’t overcome yet? Afterall, time is the one true currency. Am I wasting it?
When I give it some honest thought, I don’t ever feel guilty about the time I spend not-being-productive. I have no regrets about all those hours playing WoW, and in spite of my growing list of Someday/Maybe projects, I don’t feel like I’m missing out on something by not getting down to them. In fact, I’m rather content and happy with things right now, so maybe this is just something I need to shrug off.